Firstly, thank you friends for your sweet words and support after I opened up and shared my struggles with you last week. It was a scary thing for me to be honest in that way, I was afraid of judgement and hurtful words. I do have to admit, I had only one response from someone that claimed I was making a public complaint just to gain sympathy. But for the most part, I had nothing but loving support. I realize there will always be people who don’t know me in the slightest and I suddenly realized how easy it is to let go of those kinds of hurtful people. So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
It’s inevitable that hardships are unavoidable. We will face them periodically in our lives. Whether it be jobs, family, health, finances. We will all hit a wall that we are afraid we won’t be able to climb over. But the thing is, we will. We always do.
My husband and I have been going through some of the hardest things imaginable, aside from our adoption. A matter of fact, our adoption is nothing in comparison to the latest events in our life. I came across this great C.S. Lewis quote the other day, ” There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind”.
Last night I finally had to just let people go. Release them into the unknown future. Be at peace with letting fruitless relationships die and not feel guilty about it. We can’t spend a life time convincing people to love us, it should just happen. And if it can’t happen naturally, then it’s just not meant to be. I think I’m ok with that. I have been so incredibly blessed to be in relationship with such authentic people (including all of you!). I can’t waste my time looking behind me, it’s time to move forward.
I have such a peace lately. A joy I can’t describe. Letting go of unhealthy relationships and focusing on the good ones. But mostly because we are closing in on our adoption soon and our little one’s will finally be a part of our forever family!!! I am convinced there are such great things ahead for us as we start to make the big move back to Canada in just a few short months. So many hopeful things to look forward to. To dim the past and brighten our future.
Are you experiencing anything like this in your life? Realizing the need to let go of the past and hold on tight to what’s ahead? I would love to hear your words of wisdom!
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