The Light

The Light

Well my friends, it’s been a while. Life has been so crazy in the adoption department. We’ve had a few court hearings the last couple months, some I didn’t feel much like talking about. If I am to be honest. Then, this month something crazy happened.  I let go.  I decided whatever was meant to be would be. It felt impossible to get there, but I did. And then something miraculous happened! After almost a year in the adoption process with our two oldest, the parents rights were terminated and we were officially moving forward.  Moving forward. What does that even look like? What does that feel like? It feels like a weight had been lifted! I allowed myself to feel again. There is still that little twang of fear of the unknown. Especially since our little baby (brother to our oldest two) is so early in the process. He could very well (high probability) be going back to his birth mom. But I look at how far we’ve come and I know that everything will work out. It did for our first two, it will for our sweet baby boy.  And IF we lose him. IF we have to let him go, we have loved him hard! We enjoy every second having him in our arms. Hearing his laughter from the other room. Watching his face light up and that grin grow as we speak to him. He is such a blessing. They all are! But we hold on to hope. We stand strong in faith. We love unconditionally. Even when we are still unsure.  For now, they...
Art For A Cause

Art For A Cause

I am always on the look out for art to put up on our walls. Over the years it changes, like the seasons. I tend to change my mind a lot, which can be a bit of a problem at times. Things can easily become boring, so I’m always changing my walls around! Plus, I am taking down the old and looking for something new and fresh. I recently came across an amazing organization called Sevenly. Have you heard of them? Maybe I’m the last one to come across this amazing company, but at least I found them, right? What I absolutely loved about them, besides all their amazing products, are their unique stance as a group and team.  Every week, Sevenly works for a cause. Meaning, for those seven days, anything you purchase, $7 will go towards that weekly cause. Make sense? It’s pretty amazing, which is why if you see a cause you are passionate about you have to go for it! It won’t be there for long. Which is why when I saw the cause for adoption, I jumped on it right away!  A few weeks ago, for any product(s) you bought, you would put $7 toward helping a baby increase his/her chances of being adopted in China. How? Most of these babies suffer from a birth defect and often end up dying before they are five years of age. Heart breaking! My donation helped bring these orphans one step closer to finding a forever home!  We can’t save the world in one day, but we can do what we can, when we can. Adoption is...
Reaching Down Deep

Reaching Down Deep

Today is one of those days you don’t feel like talking. Or going through the motions of day to day things. This week has been a tough one. So many little surprises popping up and then right at the end, an explosion. If my life were a movie, it would be a pretty fantastic scene. But it’s not a movie. It’s my life. And I am left tired and a little angry. I’m angry that I can’t do anything to help my children. I’m angry that I have no voice or power that can snap and make this adoption happen sooner. I’m angry that I have no control if I lose one or all of my babies. It’s scary. It’s terrifying to think of these kids just ending up somewhere where there are no guarantees of a hopeful future.  I’m feeling tired of people. People who seem to only think of themselves. People who only add to the problem and not trying to problem solve. And not like life is hard enough on top of all the demands an adoption can bring, some people will never understand just how hard it can be and just how difficult life can get. Because there are bigger problems in the world. Believe me. Believe every person that has been on this journey or is going through it now.  Tuesday we had yet another court date. It was extended again for yet another reason. There isn’t anything you can do. You can only wait and let it run it’s course. It’s the hardest thing I’ve had to endure thus far. The not knowing....
Then There Were Three

Then There Were Three

It’s been a week since I was given our third precious foster son! He is only two months and has somehow completed our family in a way I never thought possible. I hold him in my arms, in awe and wonder. How did we get here? How could this be? I never imagined we would have three babies, all under three, all under a year. If you were to tell me this was to be a year ago, I would have laughed in your face and told you you were crazy.  Life is totally different with a baby in the house. Not only do I have two busy toddlers during the day, but I have a baby who needs me during the night as well. It’s been good, but challenging. Mostly, I’ve been feeling more afraid. Afraid what will happen if I lose him or all three. Afraid that I might have fallen hard for these amazing babies and I will never be the same because of it. Afraid because I wish so badly they were mine forever so I could stop being afraid all the time.  Do  Not Fear.  Period.  It’s not a request, it’s a command. So I lay down my inabilities to predict future outcomes. I surrender control I do not have. I walk blindly, but in freedom. My life is in good hands. Capable hands. Loving hands. Hands that hold me together in times of crazy fear. The kind of fear that causes my body to tremble. Hands that have knit my babies together, who knew them by name before they ever existed. His hands...
The Great Unknown

The Great Unknown

I know it’s been a  long time since I last updated you on our adoption story. For that, I am sorry. To be honest, my hearts been so heavy I never knew where to start and the last thing I wanted to do was talk about it. Our adoption has been moving a long as it should be, just painfully slow. And to top it off, things have gotten more complicated. Tomorrow I am scheduled to meet with a group of people involved in this whole process and I may be coming home with our third, sweet baby. Yes, tomorrow we might no longer be that family of four I’ve been talking about the last 8 months.  Our hearts have been ready for this for some time. Ever since we found out mom was pregnant, we decided we would keep as many of the siblings together as we could. We would take the baby in happily, if it meant they would be together. Still, nothing can ever prepare  you for when you go from 0 to 3 kids in under a year. I am excited and afraid all at the same time. I know we can do this, there’s just so much emotion invested into each and every one of our children. But I am hopeful. More hopeful than I’ve ever been, even as things continue to become more trivial.  Our future is part of the great unknown. I take it day by day. Sometimes minute by minute. And as life continues to give us curve balls, I clench tightly all the more. My eyes look up  to the...
Dry Bones

Dry Bones

I’m back! It was a fabulous spring break and I thank you for being kind enough to allow me this time to refuel! I had an amazing eye-opening week. I don’t know what it was particularly, but I re-discovered some awfully important things in my life. There was no pivotal moment that brought me these discoveries, they just happened in various moments that caught me off gaurd. It was magical. It was special. It was a true blessing.  I was reminded of a song I  listen to often. A good reminder during the Easter season:  You can take my dry bones Breathe life into this skin You called me by name Raised me to life again In a way, I’ve been feeling like I’m floating along in life. The wind blows me in all kinds of directions and I’ve started to wonder a lot about a greater purpose. I think this is a natural human inclination. To step back and wonder what it’s all about. Why we are here. What are we here for. Because we know it’s more than just getting up every morning to get dressed. Getting the kids fed and out the door. It’s more than getting in the car and driving to do errands. It’s more than checking emails, blogs and social media. It’s more than talking to loved ones on the phone or coffee dates with friends. It’s more than getting dinner on the table and getting to bed on time. So much more.  In time, in our own ways, we start to search. I know I began and still continue to look for...
More Waiting. And Waiting.

More Waiting. And Waiting.

Last week was a bit of a tough one for my family. We had two very important court dates regarding the kids and both were disappointing. Nothing like what we were hoping for. So, there I was again – faced with a new reality. More waiting. And waiting. The adoption process is anything but easy. For some it might have been, but for us it’s been a roller coaster. The thing is, it’s so important to keep in mind what it’s all about. Otherwise you become selfish and things can get ugly. I realize that the process is imperfect and full of flaws. I realize that things won’t make sense. Things will continue to move slowly and we won’t have any control. But what matters most is that they are ours for now. We love them unconditionally while they are a part of our lives. We invest in them as though they are ours. Because to me, they are. My little boy and my little girl.  On the positive side, I am seeing so much growth. Where fears and insecurities once were, they are now replaced with certainty and trust. They have given us their love freely. They have become such amazing little people these last few months. One quiet and curious. The other chatty and adventurous. They keep us on our toes and never cease to amaze us with their growing knowledge of the world around them. This is why it pains me to think about what life would be like if these precious little ones were taken from us. Not to know how it’s going to end....
Balance

Balance

So, I’ve gotten A LOT of questions regarding adoption and parenting lately on facebook and email. I’m totally flattered, but super nervous! Who am I to give any advice. I’ve only really been a “mom” for 6 months, so I feel overwhelmed myself. I totally appreciate you asking me though, it’s an honor to share my journey as a mom and as a fellow adoptive parent. I decided it would be fun to start a video series where I can begin posting questions as they come. I thought it would be nice to be face to face with you, speaking from my heart. It’s a lot more rewarding than just posting DIY videos all the time (which I still love to do).  This will just give you a chance to get to know me more intimately and perhaps spark some more questions!  First question for this series is: How do you find balance between being a mom/wife and your hobby without feeling guilt? Great question! Here is my humble opinion regarding this topic on balance! Also, I apologize ahead of time for the video quality (one of my goals this year is to learn how to better my skill) and for the plethora of interesting faces! Enjoy friends!  XOXO, Lidy Feel free to leave a comment! You can also follow Hello Lidy by email, Pinterest, Facebook, Twitter,...
Called

Called

I know it’s been a while since I shared more about our adoption journey. For that, I am sorry. It’s been so crazy here. A crazy I’ve never known before. It comes with so much emotion, I don’t know what to do with sometimes. There are days when I am so full of joy, so honored, so blessed. I often ask myself, how did I become so lucky to be placed on this path? On this journey?! Then there are days when I want to just put the kids down early for naps and crawl in a ball on my bed and cry, cry, cry. It’s tough – being a mom is tough. I find myself blessed because I have the two most amazing foster children (still on that road to adoption). The process has been good, but bumpy. It’s been one year exactly this month that my husband and I decided to adopt. Around this time last year, we were taking classes and learning in theory what it might be like to have little ones in our home. Now it’s reality. It’s hard to share everything that’s going on, because so much of it has to remain private. But I can tell you that we are still heading towards a specific date that we hope brings us the permission to start the finalization of our adoption. And while we’ve had our eyes set on that light at the end of the tunnel, another light started to peer through. We heard word that there was another baby on the way – the sibling to our two little ones. We’ve...
First Pumpkin Patch

First Pumpkin Patch

It’s been two months already. Can you believe it? Somedays it feels longer, other days not so much. We’ve learned a lot about one another. We’ve seen so many changes – good and bad. All in all, I think we have started settling into our new little “family”. I can’t imagine my life without these little ones. They bring us so much joy!  This year is many “firsts” for us and I really want them to be special and remembered well. This year will be our first Halloween/fall as a family. So, it only felt right that I take the kids to a little pumpkin patch! It was just the three of us and a close friend, since my husband had to work.  It was so fun! The kids loved all the pumpkins, they were everywhere – almost like a ball pit! We took so many cute pictures! We walked in the cornfield and discovered a vintage trailer. The kids were so interested in it, makes this thrifty heart happy!  My kids love old stuff just like mommy and daddy! We said hello to some friendly animals and one very smelly pig!  Then,  just like that the kids were done and ready to go. It all worked out perfectly. Stress-free and great memories!  Although I’ve only been a mom for two months, I realize how time is of the essence. It’s so important to enjoy every moment you get with your family. Our little ones have grown so much already since we first met. I feel like they are growing so fast and I don’t want to miss a...
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