It’s amazing how life can change overnight. Literally. A week ago, my husband and I were going out of town on little adventures, visiting family, going for dinners and movies. I could sit and do nothing or get everything done. Then, we got a call that would change our lives, for now or forever….
I’m not use to being called mom. I’m not use to being a mother. When you’re adopting you are trained in every way possible. I knew we would be getting a call soon, but it never hits you really. Four days ago I was getting ready in the quiet of the house. I had all the time in the world. I washed my face, did my makeup, picked out what I would wear (a couple of times) and enjoyed a few cups of coffee. That was 4 days ago. Since then, I can’t remember if I brushed my teeth, washed my face, or if I changed out of my yoga pants yet. It might be these TWO little babes we brought home with us over the weekend. I never dreamed I would have two right away. Never mind a one year old and two year old. They are the most precious little things ever and I often find myself crying spontaneously. Maybe out of fear of the unknown or joy of having such good babies. Maybe because I’ve never heard a little voice call me mommy before, completely trusting in my every move. My life is over as I know it and it’s all for good!
To be honest, I’ve been a wreck. I cry for almost no reason. There are so many thoughts and emotions going on. Some days I don’t know if I can do it and other days there’s not a doubt. I have had an OVERWHELMING amount of love, support and encouragement from family and friends. They are the arms that are around me when I feel utterly lost and alone. They are what is keeping me sane in times of insanity. I have so many things to get use to, but I know I need to take it a day at a time. An hour at a time. A minute at a time. In the end, I know we’re going to be ok……
For more about my baby journey and adoption story, feel free to visit me on Hellobee! I am Mrs. Tutu and I would love you to come along this new journey in my life!